Retail Therapy
crush - dave matthews band

Haven't you heard? Carter Beauford is my new drumming inspiration (watch the link and CRY). I'm putting more heart into practising now, and I'm improving on my techniques whenever I can. Paradiddles do keep me entertained when I'm bored. (:

Like today.

I&E was.. Super.. boring. Oh my gourd. 10 minutes into the class, when NO sign of Events Management was being mentioned, I had to ask if we were in the right class. And we were.

But oh well, introductory classes are always the most dry and boring, so hopefully the other classes will be better.

After that, Xbestie and I went to town. :D
And I couldn't find the Tuscanys I wanted (car-racing shoes... ARGH). Guess they were phased out already. :(
So after searching a few places, we went to Adidas Originals. :)
And to Far East, but no dough. :(
So back to the Originals' store it was :)
And?

I got this. :D :D


Adidas Okapi Trefoil

You all can start betting how many days it will take for it to start turning dirty.

Mehh.

>><<

Guess who I caught a'sleeping in the preview theatre.

I HATE EMOTIONS.

Please stop playing tricks on my friends and I.
If I have to go on my knees to beg, I will.
If this will prevent more hearts from breaking,
more pain from coming,
more hurt from showing,

I WILL.

Please, stop.

Return
i just dont think i'll ever get over you - colin hay

How could I ever forget -

that ROSE IS BACK FROM CANADA!!

I so wanted to kick myself when I saw her at YF on Friday for forgetting that she was back on Thursday morning already. It's just great that she's back - nothing's changed about her.. Just me. She got me a green Old Navy top! (:
I missed her SO MUCH.
you flushed the memories back. do you still care?
Speaking of which, I have a Gap bag and Abercrombie top on its way here. Heh. Bought an A&F polo for my brother, but I saw it at the stupid FOS shop at $10 LESS. UGH!! The seller must be laughing her way to the bank now. Bah, what bank. The money's already there.

Have a bit of sunburn on my face from the YF Family Day at the West Coast Park yesterday. The weather was fantastic, though I was feeling quite weak from the time of the month. The turnout was over a hundred, despite the 200+ pax signing up. Which meant that we had MANY McD burgers leftover! What a waste, sigh. But the event ran pretty smoothly, thank God. There were a few scares due to the closing of the main field, but we still found space. Thank God again!

It's the first Family Day ever organized, and the YF was put in charge of it. Kudos to all the organizers! I was one of the 'judges' for the treasure hunt - more like sit with the clues and wait for them to look for me. But after waiting at the 'seashell' area for longer than I should, I started to worry if I were at the correct place to begin with. The groups all had maps to go with them, so it shouldn't be tough. It's only one side of the park! What more, I was wearing ORANGE. After the first round where I sat only half-hidden by the hedges, I sat in the open, facing the open area and shaking my leg for the second round.

I think the other families took even longer to find me :\ And some still wondered if I were in the wrong place. Bleah.

Anyway! Here's my shopping list. TEEHEE.

1. Adidas Tuscany/Okadi shoes
2. Asics running shoes or cross country ones.
3. A&F Denim skirt

It doesn't end there, of course. Just the stuff I really need. I don't want fabric skirts lah, I just can't pull them off (figuratively la).

So it's off shopping with the xbestie on Thurs when he collects his pay! WOOHOO!!
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Pris, if you're reading this, I must say that I'm really proud of you! I don't have to help you with the drums anymore I guess. But if you need help I'll be here. Keep it up! Talk to you soon alright, woman (:

My knee acted up today. I think I have rheumatism, I swear. It rained, and it ached. HOW!
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Also, Happy Birthdays to... Small Sam (15), Gavin (23) and Crystal Oh (16)! Hope you guys enjoyed your birthdays (:

Rantings of a PMS-y Person
shut up - black eyed peas

To random people:
(if you think it's you, then so be it.)

1. You have saddened me.
2. You have disappointed me and the trust I had in you.
3. You are making me very worried and helpless.
4. You have damaged me, and the repercussions are still settling.
5. I feel bad for always letting you down.
6. I missed you so much.
7. You have to stay strong.
8. You are never around to help, what's the point of being so free?
9. I need You back in my life.
10. I appreciate your friendship(s) a lot.

I'm exhausted.

Predilection
the blower's daughter - damien rice
[ This song makes my heart weep. :( ]

Someone please, fill my mouth up with dough and tape it shut to a chair.

I CAN'T STOP EATING!!!

I think I'll even eat the dough. At the mention of just the word 'FOOD' or 'EAT', my mouth will start salivating and my brain will start craving for any thing edible to stuff into my buccal cavity.

Maybe the dough will also go down into my stomach. Hmm.

My right eardrum is starting to behave weirdly. It kind of hurts sometimes, but even hurting is not a good thing to begin with huh. OH MAN I'M GONNA GO DEAF!! Please God, don't let me go deaf.. It's either music or my life. :(

Speaking of which - Priya, XBestie and I are going to ACE radio. Yeah mon. Snorting Symphony will snort the A out of Felix Tan, our crazyaenaughtayebitchaye radio lecturer with our first assignment due in 4 weeks (which will be up before we know it), a magazine. Whee.

Went to DDB to collect my pay!! I LOVE DDB SINGAPORE. I got the WHOLE MONTH'S pay even though I only did 3 weeks!! They gave it to me for my hardwork, said the HR Manager. So cool. (: Playing soccer with them next Tuesday most probably. And DDB rocks three, 'cos XBestie, Gwennie, Isaac and Juan went home 20 buckeroos richer from watching an advertisement. Hurhur.

Had dinner with XB and Juan at Holland V after that, then went to Crustacean for a nice dessert (soft shell crab! Escargot! WARM CHOCOLATE CAKE!!) and listen to Awi sing.

What a nice, relaxing though long day overall. Whee. Tomorrow's schedule is exactly the same as my working days'. 9am - 6pm, double whee.

Showcase
the saddest song - the ataris

I can't believe I actually agreed to hang and soak the clothes just to play dotA. And got PWNED at it 'cos I, a n00b, wasn't using my brains. Gosh did I just use l33t speak?! This is getting bad. But seriously, that stupid Davion Knight which I'm using always takes the LONGEST to run whenever I ask it to. Bah, humbug. Stupid short-range fella's agility is the dumps. At least we managed to hold them for another 25 minutes before we crashed the sucky game. Need to train myself using another hero already, grr.

Not like you're interested to know anyway, huh. Sigh.

The point here is - this last match made me think. When my hero kept getting pawned by Wenyao only 20 minutes into the game, I got quite pissed and irritated with my 'hero'. Already ranting on the dialogue about quitting, until my YF assistant Team Leader Weisong (who is PRO at this game) typed: "If you wanna learn, don't give up so easily".

I was, initially, even more irritated at that. What, a younger person telling me what to do?? But it then hit upon me that I was simply being impatient and irritable for no rhyme nor reason. I was humbled. I took a deep breath and chided myself - this is just a game, for goodness' sake. What's wrong with you nowadays?

Yeah, recently I have been quite easily irked, honestly. Somehow I feel that I have become less tolerant of people and more wanting to have things go my way. In other words, a bratty little brat. Every time I feel the irritation creeping up in me, I try to suppress it and distract myself. You may say that at least I could control myself, but no - the thing is, I wasn't, am not, and do NOT want to be an impatient person. This word almost never existed in my dictionary - unless I was playing competitve games with people on my team being useless.

Hopefully it really is because of PMS. Patience, where have you gone? I feel a control-freak in me waiting to implode. Lord, help me.

I shall go snooze for an hour before Liverpool VS Milan starts.
I hope both loses. Teehee. Radio's 8am - 11am tomorrow, CRAPADOODLEDOOS.

DotA
i still believe - jeremy camp

Installed Warcraft III's DotA onto my laptop last night, and now I'm playing it on the LAN with the kids! Okay, the YF youths are not THAT young, but that's my term of endearment for them. Reminds me that I have a responsibility over them (Not an excuse!). But it seems like my addiction to the game is making me force them to play DotA with me until I cannot take it anymore. So much for responsibility.

Alright, alright. The next time we'll play earlier then, heh. :D

First day of school was a bombardment of lectures. 10am - 5pm, FIVE different lectures with a 1 hour break stuck in between. Gosh, it was so hard keeping my eyes open. It was certainly great catching up with the ABCdE and Ian. Missed the girls a lot (okay, and Ian too)! It's a pity that most of us are split from each other, and the thought that sooner or later we will absorb ourselves into new cliques etc.

My new class? I have to admit that it is a super weird mix of people, but that is left to be seen. And there's a dreaded fella whom I have to face for a SECOND year. Goodness. Thank God I have Juan, Liz, Adeline, Eddy and Sarah and Guang Rong.

This year I'm going to be a Nerd with Adeline, yessum.

Soiree
hotel california - eagles

Abnegate
if i aint got you - alicia keys
maybe still.

MCMers, Check your timetables. There's a change in the timings! THANK GOD man! I was almost resigned to having THREE days of 8am classes, before they adjusted it to only one. Radio Production 2 on Thursday, 8am - 11am.

And that's all for Thurs! HOORAY!! Wah seh! SO COOL! Shiok man!!
(I hope you noticed much-needed enthusiasm)

for the rest of the days of the week, I end at 5 and 6 and 5 and 6. wOoHoOzZzZ!!~*~! LeT's aLL gO sUpPoRt 5566 4eVa wOrX!!! -Headbangs to Wo Nan Guo.

Let's go pop some champagne and celebrate the end of my social life.

Hello, school.

Oh, I'm going to give the soccer team a go. It'll be a big test for my time management skills.

Hello, soccer.

Habeas corpus ad subjiciendum
i wanna dance with somebody - whitney houston

Got this off Christina C's blog. Food for thought.

Question 1: If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, 3 who were deaf, 2 who were blind, 1 mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the response for this one.

Question 2: It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three candidates.

Candidate A: Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

Candidate B: He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C: He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.

Which of these candidates would be your choice?

Decide first... no peeking, then scroll down for the response.





























Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C is Adolf Hitler.


And If you said YES to the abortion question - you've just killed Beethoven.

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Of judging and assuming; who is perfect?

Faineant
loving you - subtlety in red

Yup, I jammed with the band again today! And this time, we had a guest (and hopefully, permanent) lead guitarist by the name of... HOTASS! It was great having him around. Our songs seemed much fuller and though I got konfused awhile, today's jam didn't have me being too tired out. Loving You is completed!

My memory always fails me for the songs. It so happens that everytime I find the 'feeling' for the song, the 2nd time sees me trying so hard to remember what I did previously that I get distracted. I need to learn how to Relax, man. Of course, I enjoyed myself loads. It's a splendid feeling to be able to sit behind them skins again, banging away at my heart's content.


I still need to drill myself more on my independency and techniques - find my motor skills rather lagging sometimes. To me the song sounds even better with little attacks and rolls here and there, but I guess I should focus polish up more on my basics first before trying to be hero. PRACTISE!! Eve was there too (I miss that girl SO much), what more could I ask for!

So tomorrow is the last day of work already, sigh. However much I hate working, literally speaking, I will miss the working environment there. Gonna tag along for an RSAF campaign presentation, then lunch at the Rice Bowl (:

The waiter who took my reservation over the phone was super rude. Frude. He answered me with one-worders (if there's such a word) and put down the phone without much of a 'thank you' or even a simple 'good bye'! I felt like an idiot. So when another lady called back to confirm the reservation, I voiced my displeasure. And he called back after that, apologising in an altogether-different tone. Said that he'd personally apologise and serve my table tomorrow. Which means....

WHAT IF HE SPITS SALIVA OR ADDS NOSE BOOGER INTO MY FOOD!! ARGH! So much for hoping for better service. GAH.

I will share what I've learnt soon, though only 3 weeks. Need to crash now.. Goodnight!

Orange GOLD is - the new black
emotions - destiny's child

Alright, it's more yellow-y gold-y than orange-y, but ohwell. Maybe my last template was a tad unfriendly. Quite lazy to put up the all links too, though. I have to create a dropbox which means that I have approximately 70+ [options] thingies to add in. Eek.

No one has replied to my letter yet, but I don't care already. At least I've made myself heard, to say the least.

Complaint

Editor's note: I've sent this in to the 2 channels, cc ST and Today.
If you guys feel the same (and are too free), please do write in too! XB already has. Hurhur.

To the Producers of Channel U (9pm and 11pm) and Channel 8's (7pm and 11pm) news bulletin, aired on 17^th May, 2005.

First and foremost - pertaining to the bulletin in which both channels proclaimed girls becoming so daring on the internet with their unsightly photographs - I would like to question: With the Internet being in notoriety recently for its credibility, how would you explain the credibility of the pictures taken off from that particular website, whichever it is?

I'm writing in on behalf of the 2 girls in question as to the one of pictures you aired on Channel U and Channel 8's news bulletin; one of which so happens to be me, featured in the 'butt grabbing' photograph.

This photo was taken during my three months' course in a JC while awaiting my O levels' results last year, and I would like to clarify the FACT that it is a CANDID shot. If you should take a closer look, our hands are NOT touching any part of each others' gluteus maximus, and if pleases you to know - we both are pretty much heterosexuals, thank you very much. I particularly enjoy taking candid shots, but definitely NOT "lewd" ones. This photograph was put up on my Friendster account by myself (and since removed a year ago), and a supremely slight and abject ("smartguy", how ironic) lowbred gladly snatched the picture for his beloved fantasy website. Of course, I am aware of the fact that whatever goes on a public website becomes part of the world's property, so to speak.

It's a pity something seemingly harmless and meant to be for pure (self) entertainment's sake became derogatory to my reputation; and other girls', to say the least. At least my head wasn't in the picture to begin with.

Apart from this fact as a peeve, what made me very appalled for one, is that a national media company would display photos straight off a very disparaging (to our sex) website, SGGIRLS.COM (yes, I knew that the picture was there a long time ago BUT I couldn't do anything about it) where perverted people - men - actually use their cameras to sneak shots (upskirts, even stretches before exercise) of Singaporean girls or get pictures off any websites they can lay their filthy hands on, then put it on SGGIRLS.COM for their sick debauchery. If there is another purpose for that website, kindly tell me and I'll retract that statement

As a national channel(s), I implore you that agenda setting is something you should be responsible of. By sourcing your 'evidences' from such absurd and non-trustworthy sites, I see local media credibility dropping. Most of the pictures are definitely not put up by the main characters at their own will and the idea of girls showing off those offensive pictures, as the news bulletin claims, is thus very much untrue for that matter.

Please do delve deeper into the issue and doing your research proper before claiming to the nation that girls these days are horribly crass. It is giving the society a very, very FALLACIOUS and bad image of the MANY girls who still have much self-respect to give in our country, and certainly causing unnecessary emotional distress for them girls who suddenly realize their pictures being strewn all over the net (and what more, TV) at their expense.

Yours sincerely,

Ms. Benita Lim YH

PLEASE WATCH THE NEWS ON CHANNEL U TONIGHT AT 9 PM. CHANNEL 8 AT 10 PM WILL HAVE TOO I THINK.

I don't care if you understand chinese or not. Just look out for the bulletin on Singaporean girls behaving more and more appallingly, and KEEP YOUR EYES PEELED FOR THE ONLY PICTURE WITHOUT IJ girls. Why?

Because it's ME. And a friend. It doesn't even look vulgar, for goodness' sake.

So what?

IT IS A CAMERA TRICK SHOT LAH.

http://www.sggirls.com/sg_photo_display.php?photo_id=76662

You see the 'peeing' pic on the guy's submitted photos (was on the same page)? That was ME, there WAS a hose, and it was photoshopped away.

That bugger took it off Friendster.

I'm going to write in to complain (there IS a bigger issue behind this), and I'm going to justify that picture after that news bulletin tonight, here.

Stentorian
karma - alicia keys

This is how my workplace looks like..



and this is how my foot looks like after soccer yesterday. Had a boot down my foot, ouch.



We won 7-4! Had the MD on my team. So cool huh. Ha.
I'm a jinx lah. Everytime I become the goalie (was fungry) and we have to finish up the game with a last goal, I'm the one who lets it in. Bah, humbug.
Need to improve on my kick, still. UGH.

When I get my hands on the pictures, it'll be a post on the BBQ.
Doing up a new blog template too.

It's getting boring in the office... Grrr.

Cleaned up
why does it hurt so bad - whitney houston

Alllllright!

After 4 years of procrastinating and nagging from my mom, I've finally cleared my table and threw out all the clutter I've been so reluctant to get rid off because I thought they would be useful someday.

Now, to keep it neat.

Vacillate
creep - radiohead

Your Birthdate: September 18

Your birthday on the 18th day of the month suggests than you are one who can work well with a group, but still remain someone who needs to maintain individual identity. There is a humanistic or philanthropic approach to business circumstances in which you find yourself. You may have good executive abilities, as you are very much the organizer and administrator. You are broad-minded, tolerant and generous; a compassionate person that can inspire others with imaginative ideas. Some of your feelings may be expressed, but even more of them are apt to be repressed. There is a lot of drama in your personality and in the way you express yourself to others. Oddly enough, you don't expect as much in return as you give.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

The Evo 9 launch is on now, but no one wants to go with me ): It's been quite a while since I last stayed at home for whole day, and am feeling a little pms-y too, so just as well.
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It's so FOT, I made Ice Milo-shake and took a nice looonng (not very) cold bath. It's gross when the tap at it's coldest produces TEPID (lukewarm) water, though. What's up with the weather, Mr. Sir-up-there? It looks like it's about to rain now. Erk.

Cambodian BBQ at JLo's tomorrow. Hope the weather will be good.
I miss you still, somehow.

Euphemistic Epics
billie jean - michael jackson

Taken off a forum. Enjoy!
It'll be nice if you guys could come up with your own and share it, heh. (:

1. Intaxication: Euphoria at getting a tax refund, which lasts until you realize it was your money to start with.

2. Reintarnation: Coming back to life as a hillbilly.

3. Bozone (n.): The substance surrounding stupid people that stop bright ideas from penetrating. The bozone layer, unfortunately, shows little sign of breaking down in the near future.

4. Foreploy: Any misrepresentation about yourself for the purpose of getting laid.

5. Cashtration (n.): The act of buying a house, which renders the subject financially impotent for an indefinite period.

6. Giraffiti: Vandalism spray-painted very, very high.

7. Sarchasm: The gulf between the author of sarcastic wit and the person who doesn't get it.

8. Inoculatte: To take coffee intravenously when you are running late.

9. Hipatitis: Terminal coolness.

10. Osteopornosis: A degenerate disease. (This one got extra credit.)

11. Karmageddon: It's like, when everybody is sending off these bad vibes, right? And then, like, the Earth explodes and it's like, a serious bummer.

12. Decafalon (n.): The grueling event of getting through the day consuming only things that are good for you.

13. Glibido: All talk and no action.

14. Dopeler effect: The tendency of stupid ideas to seem smarter when they come at you rapidly.

15. Arachnoleptic fit (n.): The frantic dance performed just after you've accidentally walked through a spider web.

16. Beelzebug (n.): Satan in the form of a mosquito, that gets into your bedroom at three in the morning and cannot be cast out.

17. Caterpallor (n.): The color you turn after finding half a worm in the fruit you're eating.

And the pick of the literature:

18. Ignoranus: A person who's both stupid and an a**hole.

Ad Hoc
summer of 69 - bryan adams

It is going to be hellish when year 2 starts, but I really am tempted to join the school's soccer team. If I don't do it now, I may never get the opportunity to do competitive sports forever. All the sports I played were played competitively - but on a different scale. Intra-school scale. Recess time/after school scale. I never had the opportunity to develop my first love, basketball.

From 1996 to 2002 every day without fail (unless it rains or I'm sick or my mom catches me), there will definitely be a skirt (or p.e. shorts, which I was half the time in) amongst the shorts or pants flying around on the basketball court. I weren't allowed to play basketball in primary school as I had to protect my fingers (music), so I was in... Table tennis, track (for awhile) and choir. But of course, I continued with my affaire with basketball. Whee.

The secondary school I went to did not have basketball for girls (the only sport then was netball but, no thanks) so I ended up in the school band. But in retrospect, if I didn't join the band, I wouldn't have picked up the drums. I wouldn't have gotten to play in church, nor form a band.

It's a love-hate relationship for me with music. My parents, especially. What they had spent the most money on for me (piano, violin and swimming) - my interests ended up elsewhere. Naturally they felt crestfallen despite their efforts (still do), but they have been supportive, still. I enjoy music, I love sports, but it is just not those which I have real passion for. Music is not much of an unreachable skill for me, and I won't try to hide that fact (gimme some credit for EQ). God has blessed me richly, I know. But I have yet to be able to find my niche, nor develop it. A doyenne of something is what I want. Not a 'Jack of all trades, yet master of none'.

The same goes for sports. Fate just doesn't allow me to develop it further. I never had the chance. After I graduate, it'll be work.

My physique is going down the drain too. Weak ankles and knees are the last thing a sport which uses the legs is looking for. Stamina-wise.. The limbs below fail the mobile test already, how to do the respiratory test? Yes, yes. I'm only 18, you say. Not even 18 yet. Of course if there's a will, there's a way. Just that I don't want to be a cripple so soon. Then again, for the love of the Beautiful Game..

This coming year will be the - last - opportunity for me, but what comes next are the obstacles which waylays due to the hectic year 2 schedules. If I do take it on, it would be a unforgiving test of self-discipline and time-management. Thought of trying out for awhile then bailing out if it fails, but I don't want to not finish what I started. Not anymore.

Should I, or should I not? Please pray for me. Advise me, even.

Malinger
hero - mariah carey

( to feign illness or other incapacity in order to avoid duty or work )

Teehee.

The music sounded from afar, and blood rushed through my veins twice as fast. Realised, then, that it was on a different profile - message tone.

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It is friends like them who are your earthly source of moral support and encouragement to keep you going, what ever acrimonial circumstances which may have halted your life in substantial amounts should exist. It is them who refuels your once running on empty tank not once, but constantly. Transforming the breakdown into a pitstop.

And I am truly thankful for them (you know who you are).

My life revolved too much around too little.. But every day is a new learning experience. You gain some, you lose some. You are forced to adapt, to harden, to toughen, to move on. What are temporal losses when there is eternal gain? I have so much more.

I have God.

millefleur
gin and juice - phish

Today my dad becomes half a centurian. Woah. Happy birthday, dad!

I know he won't read this, but.. I do appreciate him putting in so much for the family these many years. It has definitely not been easy on him, and us kids always take him for granted.

I envisage myself living a simple life at 50, hopefully with sufficient money to last me the rest of my life. HAHA. I wanna earn many many money, then spend it slowly on the things I enjoy the most. There's a high possiblity that I may not get married, but I have made a pact with the bestie that if by 40, if the both of us aren't married, we will marry each other. HAHA. And if, by 50, I'm still a spinster, I will marry ECYY.

TEEHEE. Which means I'd better get married lah -.-

Yesterday during singspiration, one of the sunday school teachers shared her giving birth to one of the now-youths, Teng Jin. She said that initially she wanted to stop at one, but the joy of having a child ended up her having another erhh... 2 kids? I'm not too sure, heh. But her earnestness in declaring children as a blessing made me wonder if I'd become a housewife myself (XB I can imagine you saying that I'm an auntie already anyway, idiot).

I know that I'll become a career-oriented woman, and perhaps childbirth will be far, far, at the back of my head - should I get married.

Putting myself in most mom's shoes: What is the most fufilling being a mother?

Seeing your offspring successful in life is definitely one of the mandatory objectives. It does reflect how successful a parent is in bring up the child, doesn't it? Once you have a child, somehow the child becomes your 'representative' in the society, picking up from where you have left off. How ever your child behaves will be indirectly reflected upon you. All you can do is to bring him or her up until the time where their wings harden and off they fly, on their own. It's up to them on how they will bring themselves into the society. It is worrisome how they'd live their lives out. That, I think, is one of the biggest lasting worries a parent has for their children - apart from that of their safety.

How should one bring up their kids? Strict disciplining? Cosseting? Throwing them a whole ton of activities because you hope they'd excel in something at least, to attain the self-definition of 'success'? I wouldn't dare pontificate parent's methods of upbringing. But this definitely is debatable...

Being a parent certainly isn't easily. It is kind of a huge mind game to play, don't you think?

Well, happy mothers' day, though belated.

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I can't organise my thoughts properly anymore so I'm ending here. Dead tired, had a nice dinner with some of the Cambodian crew in town. Choc fondue at Max Breunners'! Thanks for the wonderful time (:

Hedonist
in the name of love - u2

First up, Happy 22nd Birthday, Bro Big Samuel!!
May you keep the faith and keep growing in the Lord. Hope you had a good dinner last night! (:

I missed my breakfast and lunch yesterday. The job was some outdoor catering at the MD of Mitsubishi Corp's house, goodness me. It's somewhere near SMU, super big house with a guard. Bah. Wore my mom's court shoes and it was a bit tight so I had slight blisters forming. The sight of me in 'waitressing uniform' is grosser than the blister lah. I took 10 minutes (to the irritation of the manager guy) to wear my skirt because I didn't know which side of the skirt went where. It was my second time wearing it since its purchase 4 years ago for my piano exam... I THINK.

The restaurant owner himself was there. But that wasn't the point (though it does show how important the customer was, duh). The point was, his son was there! HAHA. He looked a little like a malay, but really cute sia. BUT (I think I'm using too many 'buts'). He is........ 15. He thought I was 16! Yeah I wish. I wish I were younger. I'm joking.

This job has made me realise ONE thing. I like the fun of serving drinks and food etc., BUT it is a NO-NO when you put top-quality food in front of me and tell me not to touch it. I was going ballistic when I watched (and helped) the unagi sushis, chawan mushis, tempuras and other Japanese foodstuffs being laid out. So close yet so far, ARGH. I love Japanese food for one, and I also hadn't eaten breakfast nor much the day before.

Tie me to a chair and I'll go mad. Put a few scrumptious dishes in front of me too, and I'll go madder. Of course, I stole a few tempuras. It'll be a sin not to.

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Navigated my way to JLo's place straight from there for tennis. The aircon at the house had made my nose go crazy, so I was slightly breathless during the game. At least I didn't screw myself up like the previous time. Met his kids, and boy, they are really, really, really, really cute. People say that the son looks more like the mom and the girl, like him. I think they both look more like him (they have his eyes) la, heh. But they really are cute. Playful but not the irritating kind.

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Took Gopi's car down to Holland V for Sam's birthday dinner after that. I was super hungry already 'cos I skipped both breakfast and lunch. This nice cafe called Settlers', where you could play their board games and eat at the same time. Kind of dangerous playing there though, with all the glasses around. My beef steak took 45 minutes to come and if they didn't give Lyn their extra piece of chicken chop (they under-cooked the first one), my stomach would have imploded with the gastric juice overload.

After dinner was the classic :D

I farted while we were posing for pictures.

It stank. :D :D :D

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Planned to do breakfast-in-bed for the mother this morning, but me and the brother couldn't wake up on early. So the baked potatoes, special tomato dip and salami with eggs breakfast was not a success.

Played Warcraft DotA for the first time today, and I think I'm hooked. Ohnooooo.
And my Achilles' tendon is acting up again. Ohnoooooooo.
i dont want to miss you.

Launch Pad
crash into me - dave matthews band

Goodness, gracious me - I'm really, really, really pooped.

First week of work is over! How fast. Work is cool; I've found more self-discipline and initiative. So far, so good.

Tomorrow, that stupidindianwoman wants me to teach at 8am. Just great. And after I get my extra money (not, she owed me $5), it's hasta la vista! After that is more $ 'cos I gotta wear some white blouse with black skirt -.- and serve food at Goodwood Park. Busy day ahead.. Sigh.

Damnit I'm starting to miss you again.

Nondescript
Under the Bridge - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

I haven't felt so tired for such a long time, goodness. Yesterday I jammed with a heavy head, which weight extended to my legs and arms. Had to concentrate real hard on my coordination, so much so that I couldn't really catch important entries and exits quite a few times. Sorry Yuhan and Faizal for the killjoy..

We now are a 3-piece band. William has to go for studies overseas.. So..

Pugjelly, anyone?

Pardon me, we are no punkrockband.

We are: Subtle (In Red). Emo-alternative-dunoowhat-band. Versatile, y'know. (:

Finito
clocks - coldplay

I frickin' deleted ALL my inbox smses accidentally!!!!
I frickin' deleted ALL my inbox smses accidentally!!!!
I frickin' deleted ALL my inbox smses accidentally!!!!

ARGHRAHGRAHGHAHGAHAFHAHRAHGAHRAHRA!

Oh, the pain. >:'(

Perhaps it's God's will. It's about time they went, once and for all. Most of them, anyway.
Just that none will come by anymore.

But the loss, still, is gain.

Societal Semblance
big eyed fish - dave matthews band

Anyone in P02, Events Management for IS?

Work's been good so far. I can't reveal what I do exactly due to contract purposes (so act
mysterious but no choice), but I will share as much as I think my limit extends to. The accounts department I'm attached to holds the accounts of RSAF, Carlsberg, Olympus and Sobe. Really cool. Apart from the mundane admins stuff, I am aiding my account manager and my friend (a strategic planner) doing this collation of material for a particular project (which I can't reveal what, sorry) and so far it is keeping me busy and useful at least.

And the travesty of it all - I was late on my first day! So much for good impressions, bah. The traffic was Forrible. What could've been a 30 minute bus ride became a 50 minute one and 20 minutes late for work. Damn paiseh can! The people there are pretty friendly. Quite a number of eccentric but interesting people.. Mostly 20s to 30s, but their ideas and whatnot are really impressive. So cool!

There's another (ex)Masscommer who's doing a 3-month contract too - I can't really remember her name though, heh. She did a mcm degree in SIM after NP, and NOTE - she regrets it. It's almost the same as a MCM diploma in NP, just more boring and... more boring (no tutorials, just lectures). She sits right opposite me, so it was a bit of reminisicing time for her talking about school. Heh.

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Because I needed to colour photocopy some stuff today, I went downstairs to the traffic section's machine - only to be asked to go to the CREATIVES' side. Where I dream of working in (but now as I compare my own artistic abilities with theirs - I think I should just continue dreaming).

The place is an ORCHARD, literally. Everyone has Apples. MACS everywhere. 23" (I think) LCD screens. G5s. RAHH. I don't use an Apple, in case you are wondering. Up where I am, we use Windows. They allocated me a Fujitsu notebook, if I don't remember wrongly.

So I had absolutely NO idea how to use the colour photocopier, and after watching a couple of people at the machine, I tried to imitate what they did. There was a desktop (Mac) beside it and I thought I should use it ('cos they were).

"Start Scan", so I did.

After awhile... Nothing came out of the printer, so I asked this guy who happened to be at the other machine how to use the cursed machine. Ugh. He showed me how to use it - without the use of the mac.

After which he said, "You're weird, huh."

? I think he's weirder leh.

But yes, yes, if you're wondering, he is cute (so sue me). A few cute ones there lah, but heard that character-wise... The good ones are few and far between.

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Working there really puts my acting skills to good use. Looking confident and hardworking is one thing, but maintaining that 'aura' while trying to figure out how to use the Apples there is toughest. I'm dead serious.

I didn't know how to eject the CD from the 15" Powerbook G4, nor where the USB ports were, so I was pretending to wipe the dust off the Powerbook while hurriedly smsing JLo beneath my desk (there are no cubicles in the department) on how I could save myself from public embarrassment. Happened to be smsing him before that, so might as well. Losing face in front of him isn't the first time anyway. 96. Gahh.

Hopefully I can secure a spot there for the 2nd-year internship (benita.lim@sg.ddb.com!), lest I get posted to some not-so-good company due to my mediocre results. CHOY. This year, I'm gonna pull up my socks man. Lazed enough.
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Tomorrow at 8.30pm, Subtlety in Red is back in action. Whoopee!

Thanks Eve and Jem for the new drumsticks. You guys are sooo sweet!! Thanks too, MSC, for the dinner yesterday. (:

Tempest
after the love has gone - earth, wind and fire

Good morning!

I'm getting ready to get myself enslaved by a company for half a K a month. But it's okay. Trying to shift_ my Focus to the experience I get from being in the Driver's seat. Erm, nevermind me.

Thanks XBestie for the 'high' tea, and Tangos for their special deal on drinks for me :D Nothing beats hanging out alone, having a nice meal and drinks and reading up on Advertising with great music playing at the back. And I'll be too glad to share with you a personal favourite ad I came across while reading.

INGLE ELLS
INGLE ELLS

The festive season isn't the same without J&B

(Ad for J&B Scotch, I added the colours myself)

Good night!

Palatial Rights
god bless the child - ella fitzgerald

Enervate
fire - babyface

When my friendship band broke off in Sentosa after a swim across to the rocks, it was a bit of a deja vu. April 13. For that instant, I was sucked into my memory's parallel universe; what if I kept my mouth shut. Would things continue as they were? The acrimony in which things would have ended up as would have had consequences a hundred times worse.

I wonder many a time too, why do I, of all people, always find myself in the weirdest of situations. One which any other normal person would not find themselves in, and me supposedly being the least of all probablities. God has made things happen for a reason. If I don't learn from them, I should be incorrigible. What is He trying to say? I need to be still, and listen. But it definitely is trying.

Still, I question. Oh Lord, why me? Let me be strong...
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On a brighter note, here's my new band name:

Subtlety in Red.

:D